meanderings

dilemma..i feel so mixed about this election. i mean, of course, i don't want bush to win. but look at iraq. it's worse than a quagmire. it's a time bomb. and this is what kerry will inherit.. part of me wants bush to get full credit for his mess. i'm afraid the american people like sheep will listen to the republican pundits who will say kerry didn't do any better... only they won't know how bad it could have been unless bush stays in.
but how can i wish that on the iraqi and american people. how can i embrace the inevitable suffering of so many.
the only voice is the one that says the long suffering of the world may be less.
but then that stronger voice says that there has to be a world left.
oh for a crystal ball....

fatherless children...
i'm once again committing myself to the best christmas pageant ever and that wonderful family of herdmans. fatherless children who face life with an honesty and creativity that can teach us all something about how we should live our lives.
there are more herdmans that ever in my classes. their stories get sadder all the time. but their resilience is always inspiring.
before the stress begins, i need to remind myself of why i do this. i need to remember that there will be children on stage who will quite possibly never be there for the applause again. there will be some who will move on to greater heights of achievement and creativity. i am committed to both. for some this will be some of the greatest moments of their lives, for others just a step along the way. for all, i hope, a time of camaraderie and a stretching of themselves to be more.
one child makes me very happy today. to put her on the stage in whatever capacity is a coup de tat. i will meditate on her when the inevitable criticism comes. I will remember the number of motherless children in my last play. I will remember that this is for the children and the audience, that both will come away better, deeper, kinder, more thoughtful of others.
amen. inshallah.

the ralph nader continiency ...two things:

1 - neither candidate answered her damn question when it concerned aids and young black women. they both just used it as jumping off places for something else. she was pissed, and rightly so. young black women were not on the agenda.

2. israel.
chaney stepped carefully around that pile of excrement while edwards showed his whoring self when he talked so compassionately about dead israeli children and neglected to mention dead palestinian ones - killed by the state and not a random terrorist attack.

now i know kerry/edwards cannot forfeit the jewish american vote and win. and i know that a bush/edwards vote means more suffering for the world....

but black women and palestinian children count, damn it. they count.